My blog has not been my priority over the last couple of weeks and when I have posted it has only been half-heartedly. Ideally, I’d love to take a few hours each day to plan topics and write these long meaningful posts, but life brings me back to reality and tells me that it is impossible. On top of that, we’ve really been hit with several struggles recently and it’s been difficult to say the least.
I read a post by John Chow about the number one reason for his success and it made me realize the first reason why things are not going so well. The relationship between my husband and I has been shaky to say the least and we have spent the past couple of months talking about divorce. It’s a very hard thing to say publicly, because there are only one or two people in real life who knows what’s going on. Right now though, we’re both of the agreement that we are going to fight with everything we have to try to work it out.
Secondly, (and probably one of the primary reasons for our marriage problems) is that our finances are in absolute disarray. On Blogging Away Debt, I read a post about a guy who owes $54,000 and spends $2,000 more than he earns each month and I feel like it really struck a chord. That could definitely be us in a couple of years if something doesn’t change. We’re constantly falling behind in our monthly bills and haven’t paid our creditors in a few months. Whenever we come into money (Christmas, birthdays, etc.) I have to use that money to catch up on our utilities and avoid having them shut off.
And, I know the finances are really having an impact on me mentally because I’m just constantly exhausted anymore. I think I’ve definitely hit frugality burnout but when there’s no other option, what choice do you have?
Lastly, this morning I feel like I’ve hit an all time low. We do not have health insurance and that’s worried me a bit considering my Mother-in-Law just had to have surgery with no health insurance. But you know, when it rains, it pours. I was laying on the bed this morning and my son threw his head against my face. I instantly heard a snapping sound and felt immense pain. I’m 90% sure my nose is broken because it has this tell-tale curve to it now. No insurance means I’m going to have to live with it though. I’m hoping once the slight swelling goes down that it won’t be too noticeable, but for a woman - the face is the most terrible place to have something wrong.
On that note, I’m debating taking this blog any further. I won’t give up blogging completely, but the frugal topic is overused, which makes it difficult to come up with things that someone else hasn’t already talked about. Then comes the point where people needlessly call you cheap and it just really makes you start doubting yourself.
So, that’s it in a nutshell. I wanted to at least post an update to break the silence.